It is God’s privilege to conceal things and the king’s privilege to discover them – Proverbs 25:2
Sometimes I used to wish that I could know everything about how my life would go. What would I be doing in five years, ten years or thirty years time? Now, I can get excited over not knowing and instead I choose to dream with God about the possibilities that could happen. Yet, in the past, not knowing would put me into a sense of panic. At the very core or root of this panic, was simply a desire to always want to do what was right. I didn’t want to let anyone down, I didn’t want to be doing something that I was not meant to do, and I didn’t want to be doing something that would cause disappointment in me, my family and most of all God.
So, I tried to do what I thought was best. I maybe said yes to things when I should have said no. I stretched myself across many things and, therefore, I didn’t put in my all to whatever it is I was doing because I was not fully convinced that I should be doing it. I tried to do what other people were doing and mimic the way they were doing it, and then just hope for the best. I hoped it all worked out and that my family and God would be pleased with me. Oh, how I desperately would have liked to know exactly what I was supposed to be doing with my life.
I think it was this deep desire to be want to be confident in my decisions that kept me pursuing a relationship with God. I truly believe that as the Creator of me, He would know the answers to my questions, and I was not going to give up until I knew. At the same time, I had to learn to silence the voice of so-called wisdom that had influenced my life for so long. You know the ones. The voices of acquaintances, social media, magazines, pop stars, whoever it was that I listened to and believed.
I had to separate the voices that would lead me on a “wild goose chase, after another so-called mystery or the secret” (Colossians 2:4 MSG) as if it was what I had searched for my whole life. I had to listen to the voice of truth. The voice that would tell me, with love, “everything there is to know of God. Then you will have minds confident and at rest, focused on Christ, God’s great mystery” (Colossians 2:2 MSG)
It is important to remember that we come into this world as babies and each of us is nurtured in different ways and some of the time it is through half-truths and confusion that we discover the world. After having kids, my husband and I quickly realised that there were a few things that were innate to a baby and a whole lot more they would have to be taught. We saw that kids are born with a desire inside to naturally want to explore the world we live in. This desire is placed there before we are born and it is the way that God created us. But, not so that we would be blown about by many different winds of theology and see if we land in a good place, hoping for the best.
Instead, God gave us a desire to discover the mysteries of His creation with Him as our guide. Through Jesus, we can have access to the treasure map for our lives and know with confidence the plans that God has for us. We will not know everything at once, because God is a God of mystery and discovery but He does make it so that we can know the answers to our questions.
“All the richest treasures of wisdom and knowledge are embedded in that mystery and nowhere else.” (Colossians 2:3 MSG).
If you want to know what you were created for and what your purpose is in Christ, then you can know by learning to silence the voices of confusion and listen to the voice of Jesus. It may not always be easy, especially at first, but when you really know the sound of God’s voice through prayer and praise, then you can know with confidence what plans He wants you to make in your life. Be sure that when you do, you partner it with faith and be fully convinced to go after it.